They say love is but a series of battles. I dont know how true that is, what i know however is that when love gets to the point of blowing up,it does so with the fanfare. I have been an ardent student of human nature,i have always been intrigued by the dynamics between people who claim to love each other.
I have wondered why our parents could keep relationships alive for the length they have,they have weathered many battles,they have gone through hell and back.
While i admire their courage and selflessness, i always feel that they have given too much to see marriages work. Look at Kibaki,he probably would have kicked lucy out a long time ago. Moi did it without any remorse and i think he was right.
All a man needs is money,books,sex,friends of all sexes, an enjoyable occupation and that is all.
Thank God for the technological advances, one can now wash his/her clothes at the touch of a button,buy ready to eat food,disposable vyombos etc. That life comes with it the best of independence. Or what other may call selfishness. If we could formulate a form of relationship that does not require any form of committment...I wud be a happy man. As it is am not. Shit just hit the fan.
As an ardent fan of country music,especially the mucisian Kenny Rodgers, and one song in particular titled the gambler...it says one must know the different times..time to hold on,time to walk away and time to run ...when it comes to relationships...it is always time to walk away or run...then you can count your money when the deal is done.
I have always known that a woman is good for a man,but only in the context of no committment..when that crawls in ..then a man is turned into a shadow of himself. That does happpen and all the time without exception.
After much thot and after a standards test by KEBS, i have been certified unfit for female humanoids consumption for periods longer than one night. As much as i want to be normal..have a normal wife/girlfriends I have resigned to the fact that i cant.
AND THAT AINT MY FAULT, I CANT BE THAT PERFECT MAN WOMEN FANTASIZE ABOUT..my relationship with them,those who we are not related from now on will always start and end with sex and nothing more.Am sorry but i have learnt my lesson,I cant be who i aint.
